My sole purpose when I started this blog was all about recharging my faith. Getting that spirit back in me that was filled with unquestionable faith in God. I wanted to know that no matter how my life was going, I would have faith that God is there to guide me. I feel I achieved that a couple of months ago.
I realized the other day that I have been so focused on my relationship and faith with God, there’s nothing wrong with that, that I totally forgot all about my faith in others and myself. I have been so hurt and abandoned by so many over the years, there are just a few people left that I have any faith in. I have allowed so much to happen to me that faith in myself has gone to an all time low.
I have worked hard for the past two months to find new employment with one heartbreaking rejection after another. I have messed around with my own health neglecting to do what I truly need to for better health. I have failed to give it my all in helping those that truly depend on me.
The road the past several years has been a rough one. I’ve watched my parent’s lives fall apart. I have watched my career and life take a nose dive. I have watched my family suffer one life altering situation after another and let it chopped away at the faith I had in myself.
It’s time I get faith back into myself. It’s time I once again trust in myself and my abilities. It’s time I have the faith I need in myself to make the major changes I need to turn my life around.
I will need time to regain the faith and trust I once had in others. I have many wounds that need to heal and they will with time.
I continue my journey, heading on a new course. Working on the things I need to work on and knowing I have the most important tool I need. My unquestionable faith in God.